I have been asked this over and over and never have I ever have had an answer. But after thinking about it and juggling all the posible fears I have narrowed it down and here it goes.
I am afraid of failing! Not sure exactly if this is a big fear of many maybe its not maybe it is but in my case all my life I have been told what not to do and or how to do things. Although there is nothing wrong with people telling you how to do things. I wasn't a big fan of it but now that I am older I realize maybe if I would of listened to a few of those people I would not be living with this fear now. The main reason I feel this fear is not the fear of letting others down but of letting myself down because as I am writing this post I am currently finishing my hours as an extern and currently also going to school for phlebotomy and its great and all my biggest fear is to do all this work and push myself to the edge of my limits in my goals and not fulfill them. I have set some pretty ease goals for myself this year and I feel confident in checking them off my wish list. These goals are all personal type of goals they are achievable and I know I will get them done its just the process of it gives me anxiety and thoughts of what if, I have people cheering me on and giving me moral support and telling me how proud they are of me. For me that is pure love fuel that is keeping me from falling down and giving up. Those that do this for me know who they are. But I feel blessed to have the support I have because thanks to that support I am facing fears, and pushing my limits to max where I never in my life I imagined I could possibly get. I am currently an extern at an office, an actual clinical office and I feel blessed to be here and to be one step closer to my goal. I feel blessed that even though I have that little though that I might fail I push it to the side and tell myself " No matter how hard it gets, No matter how tired you are, and No matter how much work there is to do, YOU WILL get through it and YOU WILL achieve your goals, It will be worth it at the finish line!" so to summarize my fear I don't want to fail I want my kids to look at me and say my mom always pushed hard no matter the situation and thanks to her I have set goals to follow in her path. I love my kids and I want to be able to give them the example of no matter how hard life hits you, you can conquer it and you are strong enough to get through life hardest moments.
So.... I was thinking that I have a lot of things that people might not know about me so I thought I would share some of those things so if you would like to get to know a little more about me then keep on reading.
1. I am the only child (and yes I was/am spoiled by my mom)
2.I am addicted to coffee for those that didn't know
I love all types of coffee!! iced, hot, frappes you name it if it has to come to me to choose a specific coffee I could drink every day without getting sick of it would be an Americano with soy milk , one pump of caramel syrup and an extra shot of expresso.
3.I am a DIY'er I love to do all sorts of arts and crafts.
I love to sew, draw, crochet, polymer clay charms and even make my own soap bars. I pretty much do it all :) and if I have a chance to do it with my kids it makes it 20x more fun.
4. I am a beauty/make-up lover.
I love to take care of my skin and anything that will make it healthy and moisturized. Something about playing with different looks and colors just makes my heart happy and I enjoy it so much.
5. I make videos on youtube they aren't anything big but I enjoy it and I do it for fun.
Mostly to see my progress of skills and how I grow and seeing my kids grow up as well, I love having them in my vlogs as well as my videos.
6. I love reading.
Fantasy, fiction, non fiction, learning books, and magazines. Something about getting lost in a book makes me happy and filled with imagination and positive thoughts. I read to expand my mind and learn new things.
7. I started my family at 19 and it was the best decision I made.
A lot of people tell me I should of done this and done that but I feel happy with the choice I made because I get to grow with them and experience things I rarely did as a child.
8. I drink ALOT of water. Like a lot.
9.My favorite food is Chicken enchiladas .
Not just any enchiladas the ones made by my mom. (check out recipe below)
step 1: cook boneless chicken breast with a head of garlic, 1/4-1/2 med onion, and 1 tomato and 1-2 tbsp of chicken bouillon
step 2: shred chicken until its super thin
step 3: boil 8-10 tomatillos(green tomatoes) , 4-8 chiles Serrano( depending how spicy you want the salsa), 6 cloves of garlic, salt to taste
step 4: roll up the tortilla with chicken place on a deep dish and cover with salsa add shredded cheese on top and bake for 10-15 min and serve with more salsa and some sour cream :) ( my mouth just watered)
if you try this recipe please let me know
10. I am pretty weird!
I think I am the best type of weird where no matter what I will always make you laugh. I am pretty goofy and am not afraid to express myself in all my weirdness I embrace my weirdness and love every bit of it.
11.My favorite fruit is Strawberries.
Especially when dipped in dark chocolate.
12. My favorite Ice-cream is Mint chocolate chip.
and fun fact I recently found out my son loves it too.
13.I love dark chocolate .
14.Im sucker for RomCom movies.
I know they aren't real but its fun to watch and specially when I'm watching it with my hubby how he makes fun of lol.
15.I am very outgoing.
I like to be positive and make people smile.
16.I am very talkative.
I have stories for days, me and my bff will be talking for hours and will always have something to talk about even if I saw her the day before LOL :)
17. I love having my nails done.
My favorite manicure color is white or grey.
18.I have no tattoos.
I have always wanted to get one but I am too scared to I feel like its a thing I would end up regretting so I decided to get one I love to see peoples tattoos but not on my self idk how to explain why really but not on my body others yes!
19.I got married at 19
And its the best decision I have made, my marriage is such a blessing and thankful to have such an amazing husband and kids.
20.I love Videography and photography hence my IG and Youtube channel :)
follow me on IG@ http://www.instagram.com/Sewjasmin
So as a few of you may know I have been putting off going to school for a few years now. I finally took the decision to take it on this year, I started with an open mind and positive attitude and let me tell you the first week was fairly easy. But as the weeks went on and things got more piled up I started to feel overwhelmed, to be honest at times I felt like giving up but then I remembered what our teacher told me "When I was going to school I had a picture of my kids and when I felt like giving up I would look at it and remember why I started in the first place." I didn't have pics of my kids, but I always would think of them every step of the way. When I would be at home staying up late studying and doing homework I would think of all the things that I used to do in the afternoons with my kids like reading bedtime stories, baking cookies and making dinner with my kids and how much joy I would see on their faces. It made me want to cry when I would think of not being able to do it with them any more due to the schedule I had at work but I've never wanted anything more than this. So as the weeks went on I worked harder I would study and redo some vocabulary words or would go over the lessons even on the days I didn't go to school or while on my break at work. I would refrain myself from seeing my friends going to parties, some days I would be sad to not attend them or see my friends but the I would see my test results after our quizzes I would feel so happy and I would tell my friends and they would be happy to hear that all the work I did was paying off. Not going to lie I missed my friends so much, my family most of all because by the time I would see them at the end of the day everyone seemed to be in their own little worlds. After two months of putting in 1000% percent in all my work and almost throwing in the towel I am so glad I kept fighting and working harder and all the hard work I did is starting to pay off. All I can say to all those going into Clinical Medical Assistant course make sure its something you want not something to give make easy money. Because when I decided to do this everyone was shocked, they asked me thought you had plans to be a fashion designer or something that had to do with the passion I have crafting or makeup? Although a lot of people know me as the crafty person or the one they say is obsessed with makeup I am and very proud of it ,but another passion I have is always being able to help people when I can. So I decided to jump into this new world one that I was afraid of being in because of how emotional I can be and the kind heart I have. But I am so happy I decided to this, the teacher is an amazing instructor she made sure we had all the tools and understood it every step of the way her words "if you have questions be sure to ask because a closed mouth doesn't get fed" and boy is it true some days I wanted to stay quiet and I would repeat some questions but I appreciate all the patience my instructor had with me. She was such a great help she taught me all I know and most of all I thank her for helping me build of my self confidence in this course being able to step out of my comfort zone, I thought that me having a fear of needles and having a light stomach for medical stuff I wouldn't be able to continue with it but I finally can say I lost the fear of needles and I can proudly say I am a Certified Clinical Medical Assistant. I will be taking more courses in the future but this one will be cherished due to all the help I got from all the students I got to share this experience with, my teachers Mrs. Candy and Mrs. Debby they are both incredibly amazing instructors and they hold an amazing place in my heart. They both taught me so much and kept pushing me and telling me it was ok if I didn't get it done the first time and for that I am so grateful. I made some new experiences, made some friends and got over a few fears I had and mostly I gained a bit of my confidence I had thinking I wouldn't be able to do something after being out of school for a bit over 10 yrs and I can gladly say I DID IT!! I did it being a full-time mom, full-time wife and having a job I still managed to do everything thanks to the support of my teachers my classmates for being there to lab together and to my family for believing in me showing me support all the way through I won't say who because you all know who you are thanks so much for the support and help I got along this journey.
HEY DOLLS!!! I hope you all had a great start to the new year! My start to the new year was a bit rocky a few bottled emotions, but I found a way to make it better and slowly but surely i'm sure things will fall into place and things will sail smoother. My New Years resolution is to just be free and try new things and get out of my comfort zone. I know its easier for me said than done but thats why its on my list for this year. I hope you all fulfill your goals this 2019 and I wish you the best in luck in all the things you do! I feel like 2019 should be the year where people push each other to be better and not tear each other down, it seems like all 2018 was bashing and hating on one another on youtube and instagram but I'm glad I know better than that I was taught to be kind and be grateful which I am each and everyday I feel happy I get to spend another day with my family and have another day to be alive and take on the world! Like I said before I wish you the best 2019 and I hope all the things you set your mind to do get done and fulfilled HAPPY 2019 dolls! Cheers to a great Year!!
Hey everyone! So as most of you know I love taking care of my skin. I love make up and in order to have a flawless skin it starts with fresh skin. So today I decided to go in and get a facial it consisted of the following
I AM A CREATIVE INDIVIDUAL WHO LOVES CREATING NEW THINGS FOR MY KIDS AND MY SELF. SEEING HOW HAPPY THEY GET WHEN MOMMY HAS MADE THEM SOMETHING MAKES ME SO HAPPY.